my why...
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I found myself in a rut. I had such a disconnect from my work and the photography I once loved and craved became something I had no feelings for... like nothing. Numb was the only word I could use to describe how I was feeling.
What had gone so terribly wrong? How could I spend a lifetime with a camera in my hand and all of a sudden find myself with my "dream job" and have these feelings towards it? It took a lot of self discovery. It took isolation to hear inside my heart. It took confusion, tears, anger and basically giving up to figure out... I COULDN'T give up! It wasn't in me. There was this pull to continue doing what I loved so much I just had to find a new way to go about it. I had to shake myself free of the doubt, the rules, the expectations I had placed on myself to "play it safe". I had to let go of that "people pleasing" mentality and do for ME. It wasn't easy and it wasn't quick.
To be honest with you, it took almost two solid years to get it all out of my head and get right with my creative voice. I am not going to say it wasn't painful. But what came out of it...what came out of that muck was so much clarity. Not only for my photography work but for my heart.
The thing I discovered most about myself (although I did already know it, I just didn't know how to express it) was that I am super upbeat, fun, optimistic and an overall happy personality...but I am just a little "deeper" than most. I don't know how to even explain it. It is just who I have always been... I don't just hear the beat to a song, I feel the words...type deep. I see beyond the surface of people and truly feel their heart.
I am very aware that everyone has a "story" and not in a cliché kind of way...like a REAL story. Life isn't always pretty. It sure isn't always easy... and no matter what the story is, whether I even really know the details or not...I capture it.
I like to look at my photography as way to capture a FEELING and a MOMENT...it isn't about your hair or your makeup...it is about YOU and YOUR STORY.
Okay so I went and now I am back...but every time I return I ache to go back as quickly as possible! So I have this friend. A friend who supports me through every journey I take. She is "my person". Only one problem...she lives in California and I, well I am in Texas! Her daughter Rachel is a senior and for her birthday her sweet momma decided to surprise her with a gift...a gift of ME! They flew me to them and we spent 3 days together shooting and laughing, making memories and most importantly bonding. Laura and Rachel are like family (as is her husband Chaz and other daughter Charlie) but these two girls get my heart....and love me no matter what! I am so blessed to have found their friendship and honored I was chosen to be such an important part of Rach's senior year memories. It was a week I will never forget! Although I am an Austin, TX photographer...my heart is in California with these amazing friends! 
...But all the possibilities, No limits just epiphanies
When I grow up to be a man
Will I dig the same things that turn me on as a kid?
Will I look back and say that I wish I hadn't done what I did?
Will I joke around and still dig those sounds
When I grow up to be a man?
"Reaching for something in the distance, So close you can almost taste it. Release your inhibitions..." Brooke, such a sweet and fun girl. Her eyes say it all, without words you can see into her sole and feel the kindness of her heart.
Today is where your book begins...
"Tonight, We are young, So let’s set the world on fire...We can burn brighter than the sun" We are Young by Fun
"hey I need a model for a mentoring session… I have a vision and I need YOU… you ready" After going through the emails I had with my 
This day was meant for me. For the friendship I made in Tiffanie, for the renewal of my spirit, for the humble reminder of where I started, and for the amazing love I have for the town I was shooting in. God had shown his buttery Sun Shine down on us and we created. To see more on what a ONE on ONE mentor is look 
some BTS from the day… Chris, Tiffanie doing her thang, and Jenna seeing herself in my promo!
you will see me shoot here often. I ADORE this place. The light is all I think about and I would love here if I could…never mind it doesn't have a door, is missing part of the wall and is covered in BUGS. I still am in love with this place. Avery was so much fun and game to hang out by the big nest of yellow jackets…all to get the image… hello…did I mention I LOVE her! 
Okay Melissa is seriously what I call a ROCK STAR. This girl braved the cold gloomy day and still brought her A-Game! Can you tell we were shivering the entire time? Nope... rock star I tell you!
Dana. What a BEAUTIFUL young lady. I ADORE her session. It was so windy and cold but we braved the weather as long as we could! I am so glad I got to capture her amazing beauty before she graduates and follows in her sisters footsteps and heads off to the University of Texas, Austin!!
We are working on something so fun and these two ladies were AMAZING models for me. I am playing around with my editing so do not think you are seeing things funny. It is just time for either a little change for me or to try something and get it out of my system. We are artist...you get it!
